Sunday, November 4, 2012

How Do You Find Me?


"Do you find me too much of a tomboy? I do long to do boy things."
                                                                                   Ivy Walker-The Village

I feel like asking that sometimes. Like when I am talking to guys, and I do as much "guy stuff" as they do. Or sometimes  more. Sometimes I will join in the conversation, and then think, "Oh man, I shouldn't have said that...it makes me sound like a dude." And then there are times that I teach a guy a "manly" skill. Like driving a 4-wheeler, or teaching my cousins to shoot, or something like that.
What is it that determines what is a "guy thing", and what is a "girl thing"? I like working on roofs...I like demolition (such as gutting houses)...I like shooting guns...I like motorcycles, and hiking, and camping, and loads of things that are usually considered boy things.
But then, as far as girl things go; I'm not so keen on shopping (unless it's at a thrift store or something like that), I don't like girl talk very often, I don't wear make-up very often, and I stink at small talk. All of which are considered girl traits.
I do so long to do boy things. And at times, I wonder if perhaps I will always just be considered a tomboy, and not someone who could ever be a good wife and mother. I mean, I do girl things. I love to cook, I enjoy wearing skirts, etc, etc. But probably 80% of the time, I am doing boy things.
I wonder at times if I should change. Maybe I should be more of a woman. But then I give up on that idea. Why should I quit doing what I want to do just because of what people think? It's like Ivy's situation in The Village. She was such a tomboy, but she found someone who loved her the way she was. I am the way that God made me, and if someone wants me to change that, they're not worth my time.